I feel like I've just kicked a puppy.
The fact that the puppy was (metaphorically) hanging on to the cuff of my jeans being dragged around the apartment as it explained why it wasn't doing anything, it was looking into options and waiting for things to materialize and doing things logically which means working on them one at a time because god forbid it might end up in a situation where it actually got itself multiple options, does not make me feel much better. It makes me a little more angry, but doesn't actually reduce the guilt, just shouts over it.
It also makes me very uneasy about my own habits. I mean, yes, I bitch about things, but I work on them, too. I try and finish art. I cancel things that need to be cancelled. I make changes. I look for things. Sometimes I don't notice that I can make changes until it's pointed out, and sometimes I don't have time to do everything I want, but once I see something's broken, I fix it.
Don't I?
Damn puppies.
I'm more of a cat person anyway.
The fact that the puppy was (metaphorically) hanging on to the cuff of my jeans being dragged around the apartment as it explained why it wasn't doing anything, it was looking into options and waiting for things to materialize and doing things logically which means working on them one at a time because god forbid it might end up in a situation where it actually got itself multiple options, does not make me feel much better. It makes me a little more angry, but doesn't actually reduce the guilt, just shouts over it.
It also makes me very uneasy about my own habits. I mean, yes, I bitch about things, but I work on them, too. I try and finish art. I cancel things that need to be cancelled. I make changes. I look for things. Sometimes I don't notice that I can make changes until it's pointed out, and sometimes I don't have time to do everything I want, but once I see something's broken, I fix it.
Don't I?
Damn puppies.
I'm more of a cat person anyway.
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Date: 2005-01-19 02:05 am (UTC)With a hammer, if necessary.
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Date: 2005-01-19 02:21 am (UTC)I am not willing to use illegal hammers. That would be wrong.
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Date: 2005-01-19 02:20 am (UTC)Sometimes you have to make it up as you go along, and waiting for stuff to materialize isn't the way to go. This year, same event, different boss, no instructions, improvising as we go along, running MUCH better. And I have killed him in my dreams once.
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Date: 2005-01-19 02:22 am (UTC)> "But there aren't instructions on how to run the event"
Could I trouble you for a few additional details? That sounds like potential comic strip material.
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Date: 2005-01-19 03:05 am (UTC)